27th Sunday OT
Fr. Philip Neri Powell, OP
Our Lady of the Rosary, NOLA
In a homily delivered in
Assisi, Italy on the feast of St. Francis, the Holy Father asks,
“Where did [St.] Francis’s journey to Christ begin?” His answer
to this question is frightening. His answer shows us why Paul must
encourage Timothy: “God did not give us a spirit of cowardice.”
And why the apostles beg the Lord: “Increase our faith.” His
answer even shines light on why the prophet Habakkuk wails at God:
“How long, O Lord?. . .Why do you let me see ruin; why must I look
at misery?” Where did St. Francis begin his journey to Christ? The
Holy Father answers: “It began with the
gaze of the crucified Jesus.
With letting Jesus look at us at the very moment that he gives his
life for us and draws us to himself.” To look and see such misery
and knowing all the while that Christ's ruin is our repair. . .no one
possessed by the spirit of cowardice could watch this. No one lacking
in faith would be pulled into his gaze from the cross. Accepting and
living the Good News of Jesus Christ is one life-long act of courage,
one small act of faith after another. But neither Christian courage
nor faith in God deserves applause or gratitude. Why? B/c we are
drawn to Christ. . .by Christ.
Our
Holy Father says that our journey to Christ begins “with letting
[the crucified] Jesus look at us at the very moment that he gives his
life for us and draws us to himself.” What does he mean by “letting
Jesus look at us”? No one needs my permission to look at me. They
just look at me and here I am, being looked at. All of us are seen
everyday without even knowing it. We look at others all the time w/o
their permission. But couldn't we say that the difference btw Looking
and Seeing is the same as the difference btw Hearing and Listening?
What's that difference? Attentiveness, intention? I can hear but do
not listen; I can look but do not see. Does this sound familiar?
Jesus teaches his students that they will meet people along the Way
who hear and look but do not listen or see. These people will hear
with mistrustful ears and look through cowardly eyes. Attentiveness
and intention make a difference, of course, but the difference that
makes The Difference is faith. Jesus doesn't just look at us from the
cross; he gazes at us. He looks with intent, with purpose, and if we
let him gaze at us, we return his gaze in kind. We are drawn to him
and our looking becomes seeing
with faith.
Notice why the apostles
suddenly beg the Lord to increase their faith. They ask him how many
times they should forgive a brother who sins. Jesus says, “. . .if
he wrongs you seven times in one day and returns to you seven times
saying, ‘I am sorry,’ you should forgive him.” The apostles
immediately see the connection btw forgiveness and faith, and they
immediately recognize the weakness of their faith. To forgive someone
who sins against you over and over again requires a great deal of
confidence in the power of mercy to correct error. It also requires a
strong sense of one's own sinfulness. But the purpose of forgiving
others is to draw us back to the Cross and the merciful, dying gaze
of Christ, the one who makes all forgiveness possible. When you
forgive someone who sins against you, you bring the merciful gaze of
Christ to them. You become Christ for them in that moment. That takes
courage. It takes courage and a deep trust in the fact that not only
are their sins forgiven but so are yours. The apostles know this, so
they beg Jesus to increase their faith, to add to their ability to
trust. Unfortunately, the apostles don't yet quite grasp how faith
works. They still see faith as a quantity, a measurable amount of
something that can be increased or decreased. Jesus, as usual,
reveals the truth.
He
says, “If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you would say
to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it
would obey you.” Faith isn't measured in quantities; it's measured
in acts of courage and obedience. As the good habit of trusting in
God's loving-care, faith—even the size of a mustard seed—can
accomplish the seemingly impossible. If this seems improbable, then
consider the strength it would take to forgive someone who sinned
against you seven times, or seventy-seven times. That's not a feat of
brute physical strength but rather a feat of spiritual strength. What
does it say about you and your relationship with God that you can
show mercy to a person who's hurt you seventy-seven times? It says
that you are painfully aware of your own sinfulness and your own need
for mercy. That you can forgive them—even just once—is an act of
courage, an act done in fear despite that fear. If you trust that
Christ died on the Cross for you and even now draws you into a life
of holiness with his dying, merciful gaze, then that trust must be
shared, given out. We cannot follow Christ unless we are ready to
become Christ. And that kind of trust can be large or small so long
as it is also strong.
You
might be thinking right now: I'm not THAT strong. Lord, give me
strength! Excellent prayer. Paul writes to Timothy, “For God did
not give us a spirit of cowardice. . .So do not be ashamed of your
testimony to our Lord. . .but bear your share of hardship for the
gospel with the strength that comes from God.” The spirit that God
gives us is His Holy Spirit, the spirit of love. When we call upon
the strength we need to endure and thrive, we are not calling upon
any created power, any merely human reserve of energy or vigor. We
call upon the gift of God Himself, the freely given presence of Love
Who is God. Like faith and hope, this love is bound to us in our
human nature; that is, wired into each of us from the moment of our
conception. There is never a question of whether or not we “have
faith” or whether or not we “have love.” We do, by nature. The
question is whether or not we will use God's gift of freedom to love
freely, forgive extravagantly, and bear witness to His mercy! Any and
every strength we have is from God, but it is only with our
cooperation, our permission that faith, love, and hope mature. IOW,
we allow
the crucified Jesus to see us. And we look back at him, seeing,
trusting.
What
do we do when our trust is weak? What do we do when, like Habakkuk,
we hear ourselves crying out to God, “Why do you let me see ruin;
why must I look at misery?” In that same homily in Assisi, our Holy
Father says, “The cross does not speak to us about defeat and
failure. . .When we let the crucified Jesus gaze upon us, we are
re-created, we become 'a new creation.' Everything else starts with
this: the experience of transforming grace, the experience of being
loved for no merits of our own. . .” Being loved for no other
reason than that God is Love is the transforming grace—the
life-changing gift—we need to endure, and not only endure but
prevail. When your trust in God is weak, invite Christ to look at you
and to see you and to gaze into your heart and mind. Let him
see—truly see—your weakness. Let him take it to the Cross for
you. And let him make it holy in sacrifice, give it to his Father as
an offering. Return his gaze; let yourself see—truly see—what he
did for you on the Cross and all that his death and rising again
accomplished. Then, remember Paul's words to Timothy: “Do not be
ashamed of your testimony to our Lord. . .”
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