29th Sunday OT
Fr. Philip Neri Powell, OP
St Dominic/Our Lady of the Rosary, NOLA
Pray
always. Pray always without ceasing. Pray always without ceasing, AND
do not grow weary. Is there anything we can do always and without
ceasing that doesn't make us grow weary? Even those things that
we love to do will eventually grind us down, exhaust our reserves,
and cause us to crash and burn, so why should prayer be any
different? Why wouldn't a ceaseless conversation with God wear us
out? The intense focus required: brow creasing, eyes squinting, lips
running. Your mind flipping through catalog after catalog of
petitions, names, causes, needs, and wants. Memory stoking conscious
thought with prayerful fuel: pious phrases; exhortations; the names
of interceding saints; useful titles for Mary and the angels. Fingers
counting out beads, or shuffling through stacks of holy cards; eyes
picking out the details of a statue, a station, or a crucifix.
Bowing, kneeling, standing, maybe even crawling, only to stand again
and genuflect. Why doesn't a ceaseless conversation with God wear us
out? Maybe it should. But it doesn't. Perseverance in prayer—always,
without ceasing—cannot weary us b/c prayer is our direct line to
the source and summit, the center and ground of our very being: God
who is Love Himself.
Pray
always, without ceasing and do not grow weary. Be persistent,
persevering in prayer. That sounds good. It sounds like the sort of
advice we want to hear from the pulpit. We want to hear our preachers
exhort us to be persistent, to be persevering, but let's be frank
with one another. Words like “persistent” and “perseverance”
are just the polite substitutes we use to disguise a vulgar truth: a
successful prayer-life requires a bull-headed stubbornness. I mean
something akin to the sort of stubbornness that we expect from a
rented mule*; or the iron will of a two year old refusing her nap
time. We're talking about a level of determination and dedication
that would make an Olympic gold-medalist blush with shame at his own
laziness. If you will live a life in God's blessing, weariness is not
an option. Why not? B/c the stakes are too high. B/c the costs of
laxity are too great. Consider: prayer does nothing to change the
mind of God. Prayer changes the pray-er. If we cannot or will not
recognize the blessings that God has poured out for us, it's likely
b/c we have failed to be stubborn enough in using prayer to open our
eyes to see. His gifts never stop coming; they never cease flowing.
If we will to see and receive His gifts, our prayer can never cease.
Gratitude must always be on our lips.
The
Catechism teaches us: “Prayer is both a gift of grace and a
determined response on our part. It always presupposes effort [b/c]
prayer is a battle. Against whom? Against ourselves and against the
wiles of the tempter. . .” (2725). Prayer would be a burden if it
were not a gift. But b/c it is a gift, it is not only not a burden
but a necessary weapon, a weapon against temptation and our own
obstinate disobedience. As we daily receive the gift of prayer and
use it stubbornly, our disobedience is muted; the chains of sin are
loosened; and find ourselves freer and freer to pursue the holiness
we were created to pursue. The CCC says, “We pray as we live,
because we live as we pray. . .The 'spiritual battle' of the
Christian's new life is inseparable from the battle of prayer”
(2725). Don't balk at the image of the Christian life as a battle, or
the idea that prayer is a weapon in that battle. We are in a
fight—don't doubt it—a fight against ourselves, the world, and
the Enemy of Life itself. That direct line to the source and summit,
the center and ground of our being—Love Himself—feeds and
nurtures us in this fight. To let it go, to surrender this life-line
to our Strength is dangerous; I daresay, suicidal. In the middle of a
fight for your life, your eternal life, you do not abandon your only
means of victory.
Writing
to his disciple, Timothy, Paul urges, “Remain faithful to what you
have learned and believed. . .I charge you in the presence of God and
of Christ Jesus. . .proclaim the word; be persistent. . .” Remain
faithful; be persistent. Why this focus on endurance, tenacity?
Aren't we called as Christians to be tolerant and flexible? Aren't we
supposed to be willing to compromise in conflict? That's what “love
your neighbor” is all about, right? I mean, how do we love others
and at the same time remain faithful to what we have learned, if what
we have learned conflicts with Christ's command to love? When we love
our neighbors, we participate in Love who is God Himself. He is also
Truth and Goodness, so we can only love in the presence of the True
and the Good. Paul's admonition to remain faithful and to persist in
the Truth is a warning to us not to forget that we are vowed to
proclaim the Word, the Word who became flesh and bone and died for
us. We can only fulfill our vow if we stubbornly refuse to surrender
our direct line to Love Himself, only if we tenaciously guard against
the temptation to compromise what we have learned and believe.
How
do we keep the weapon of prayer honed and well-oiled? By using it,
daily using the gift. What happens when we become distracted in
prayer? Those aren't distractions you're experiencing. That's the
Holy Spirit showing you who and what needs prayer. What about those
dry periods when it appears that God isn't hearing us? He always
hears us. Dryness comes when we aren't listening. The surest way of
ending a dry-spell is to turn your prayer to gratitude. Gratitude
grows humility and humility unplugs the ears. What about finding the
time to pray? If you are still breathing, there's time to pray. Talk
to God about washing the dishes; driving the kids to school; paying
the bills; cooking dinner; mowing the yard. Keep a running
conversation going about whatever it is you're doing. What if we grow
weary of prayer? Ask yourself: am I tired of being loved? Am I
exhausted by being forgiven? If you grow weary of prayer, then tell
God that you are weary and give Him thanks for being alive to feel
weary! If all you have to say to God is “O Lord! I am so weary!”
then say that. Say it until you're no longer weary and then give Him
thanks for the gift of being able to tell Him so.
I
urged you earlier not to doubt that your life as a Christian is a
battle and not to forget that prayer is your greatest weapon. Let me
add: prayer is not a technique or a method. It takes no special
training, no weekend seminar, or bookshelf full of How-To guides. You
don't need to learn how to pray b/c God taught you to pray the moment
you were conceived. He engraved into each one of us an indelible
desire to seek Him out and live Him forever. In other words, in the
great game of life, God made the first move and He continues to make
the first move with every breath we take. If we're to be stubborn in
prayer, then all we need to do is make each and every breath an
exhalation of thanksgiving and praise. Breath in His gifts, breath
out our gratitude. If you grow weary of prayer, then I must ask: have
you grown weary of breathing? We live, move, have our being in the
enduring presence of Love Himself. Prayer is no more difficult than
seeing, hearing, touching, feeling His presence as we live and move.
Stubbornly refuse then to be moved from His loving-care and just as
stubbornly give Him constant thanks.
*I was asked by a City Boy last night after Mass why a rented mule would be considered particularly stubborn. The idea came from the saying, "They work me like a rented mule," meaning, they worked me hard b/c they do not own me and will therefore not lose anything of value if I were to die while working. A rented mule would be especially stubborn b/c he is usually worked too hard.
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