3rd Sunday of Easter 2016
Fr. Philip Neri Powell, OP
Our Lady of the Rosary
Our Lord asks Peter a question—The Question, actually—the question that
makes Peter squirm like a worm on a hot rock: “Simon [Peter], son of
John, do you love me more than these?”* We can't help but wonder what
went through Peter's head at hearing this question. He must've flashed
back to the time Jesus asked the disciples, “Who do you say that I am?”
And he answered, “You are the Son of the living God.” He must've
remembered rebuking Jesus when the Lord revealed that he would die in
Jerusalem, and Jesus yelling at him, “Get behind me, Satan!” He must've
remembered Jesus' prophecy that he would deny knowing him three times in
the Garden. That memory must've made him blush in shame. His betrayal.
Fleeing arrest. Outright lying. Now, the Risen Lord sits with him on the
shore of the Sea of Tiberias and asks, “Simon [Peter], do you love me
more than these?” Of course, Peter says that he loves the Lord. Could he
say anything else? Truly, sitting there in the presence of the Risen
Lord, could he confess to any other passion but the love btw friends,
friends who willingly die for one another? “Yes, Lord, you know that I
love you.”
This first answer to the Jesus' question tells us that Peter is
confused. “You know that I love you,” so why are you asking me if I love
you? All those memories of rebuking Jesus, betraying him, denying him;
all those chances to live out the radical love btw friends willing to
die for one another; all those flashes of revelation into his teacher's
true nature and ministry, the entirety of his short but intense life
with this extraordinary man of God—they all collapse into this single,
profoundly intimate meeting btw a sinner and his Savior: “Peter, do you
love me?” “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.” No, Peter isn't
confused at all. He's feeling awkward, spiritually clumsy. He wants this
moment to end. What can I say to get this over with? Or maybe he's hurt
that his teacher thinks he might not love him. He has every reason to
doubt that he does. Or maybe Peter is offended by the question, “You
know that I love you, Lord,” why do you ask? Why does Jesus interrogate
Peter this way? Not once or twice but three times he asks. And three
times Peter gives the same answer. By the third time, John tells us,
Peter is “distressed.” He's worried. Does the Lord really think that I
don't love him? Peter is “grieved” by the possibility, so he answers, a
little desperately, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love
you.” Jesus says, “Feed my sheep.”
This seaside scene btw Jesus and Peter brings to harvest a number of
seeds planted by Christ in the hearts and minds of his disciples. Though
Peter is the focus of this interrogation, the other disciples bear
their own spiritual wounds and fruits as a result of Christ's teaching.
Since he first said, “Follow me” to these fishermen, Jesus has taught
them in word and deed to forgive one another, to be at peace with one
another, and above all, to love one another. He's taught them to
surrender themselves to God by taking up their crosses and bearing up
under whatever burdens must be carried. He's taught them to remember him
in the breaking of the bread, in daily prayer, in fasting and in taking
care of the least among them. He's taught them that being first in
God's kingdom means being last in the Enemy's; and that if they love
him, if they are truly willing to die for love of him, they will feed
those who follow him. Feed my sheep. Feed them with the bread of life.
Feed them with the Word. Satisfy their hunger for heaven, their thirst
for the truth. This seaside scene btw Peter and Jesus is not only
Peter's reconciliation with his Lord, it is also his final exam, his
last test as the Lord's favored student.
As students of Christ, how would you and I do on this final exam? If the
Risen Lord were to appear to us and ask, “Do you love me?” how would we
react? Would we be confused by the question? Hurt? Offended?
Embarrassed? Distressed? Or would we jump at the chance to tell the Lord
that we do love him? Would there be that split second btw the question
and our answer when we remembered that time when we had the chance to
bear witness to God's mercy and didn't? That chance to forgive we let
slip away. Would we recall all the times we've denied knowing Christ by
failing to love as we should? Those times when we let our pride stand in
the way of our humility? Would our failures to give God thanks for our
blessings cause us to stutter an answer? Would we blush at our lack of
growth in holiness? Our spiritual clumsiness when disaster strikes? Yes,
probably; yes, to all of these. And then we'd remember what Christ
taught from his cross: all is forgiven; every sin, every flaw and fault,
every failure to love is washed away. And we'd say, “Yes, Lord, you
know that I love you.” And he'd say to us, “Feed my sheep.”
When Peter and the other Apostles are arrested by the Sanhedrin, did
they remember this profoundly intimate meeting with the Risen Lord? They
must've. The high priest accuses them, “We gave you strict orders, did
we not, to stop teaching in that name? Yet you have filled Jerusalem
with your teaching. . .” Before he responds to the accusation, Peter
must've heard Jesus saying, “Feed my sheep.” So, he says to the priests,
“We must obey God rather than men. . .” Rather than obey men, we must
feed the Lord's sheep. Rather than bowing to your worldly power, we must
bow before the glory of God. Rather than surrender ourselves to this
world's hatred, we must teach others to surrender themselves to God's
love. Peter must've smiled a little, recalling the grilling Jesus gave
him by the Sea of Tiberias. Three times he had to confess his love for
Christ. Three times Christ ordered him to feed his sheep. And now, here
he is, standing before the powers of men, and he understands why Christ
put him to the question. Jesus knew that he, Peter, could not feed his
sheep if he himself would not be fed. The Lord absolved Peter of his
sins, gave him a word of mercy so that when the time came to defy the
world, he can so ready to die. I imagine Peter in front of the
Sanhedrin, whispering, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”
You know already, brothers and sisters, that we must obey God rather
than men. We know this, but can we do it. More often than not, there is
no conflict btw what we must do to satisfy the world and what we must do
to satisfy God. But when a conflict arises, do we think immediately of
Peter before the Sanhedrin? Do we think of him at the seashore with
Jesus? Or do we think instead of all our failures and flaws, all of our
sins and then excuse ourselves again from the obligation to put Christ
first in our lives? Our failures and flaws cannot serves as excuses.
After the death and resurrection of Christ, our sins are forgiven. We
can no long demur in our duties to God b/c we are unworthy, or b/c we
imagine ourselves to be too irresponsible to love properly. Jesus asks,
“Do you love me?” If your answer is, “Yes, Lord, I love you,” then hear
him say to you, “Feed my sheep.”
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