28th
Sunday OT
Fr.
Philip Neri Powell OP
St.
Albert the Great, Irving
What
riches do you put between yourself and our Father’s love for
you? Here's the scene: the rich young man asks Jesus how he might
inherit eternal life. Jesus patiently recites the commandments given
to Moses. The young man tells Jesus that he has observed the Law all
his life. And then in an moment that deserves its own gospel, Jesus
looks into the young man’s heart, loves him, and with this love
sees the gaping hole in the young man’s soul—the lack, the
longing that defines him. Jesus sees the young man’s enslavement to
things. What the young man lacks but desires is true poverty. Freedom
from stuff. Freedom from ownership. BUT he has
many things. And most importantly, he is possessed by
those many things.
So,
knowing that the young man seeks eternal life and knowing that he
desires to be free of these things, why doesn’t Jesus just free him
from his possessions? Why not cast out the demons of avarice and
liberate the young man from his bondage? Jesus does exactly that.
Jesus tells him as precisely as he can: go, sell your stuff, give to
the money to the poor, and follow me. His exorcism is complete. But
you see, an exorcism is effective only on those willing to be freed
from their demons. The young man desires to be free. But he doesn’t
will it; he doesn’t act. And so he remains a slave to his
possessions. Jesus offers him control over his greed, control over
his stuff, and instead, at the words of exorcism, the young man’s
face falls and he goes away sad to remain sad all his days.
Here’s
what you must understand about desire. Desire is at once longing and
lacking, hungering and not having. To desire love is to long for it
and to admit that you don’t have it. Jesus looks into the heart of
the young man and sees his brightest desire, his strongest lack, and
he loves him for it. But we cannot be a slave to two masters. You
cannot give your heart to two loves. We must be poor in spirit so
that we can be rich in God’s gifts. We must be poor in spirit so
that there is room for Christ, room for him to sit at our center and
rule from the core of our being. This is what it means for us to
prefer wisdom to scepter and throne; to prefer wisdom to health and
beauty; to account silver and gold as sludge. In wisdom, all good
things come together in her company.
This
is the point in the homily when I am supposed to exhort you to give
up your earthly attachments. Exhort you to surrender your chains:
your inordinate love of cars and money and gadgets and sex and drugs
and rock and roll…But you know all that, don’t you? You know as
well as I do that none of that is permanent. None of that can
substitute for the love of God and the grace of his mercy. None of
that will bring you happiness. It is ash and smoke and shadow and
will never – despite the promises of luxury and attention – will
never make you happy. You know this. I don’t need to tell you that
nothing created can do what only the Creator can – give you a
permanent love and life everlasting.
But
let me ask you again: what riches do you put between yourself and our
Father’s love for you? What possesses you and holds you back? If
Jesus looked into your eyes and said to you: “You are lacking one
thing
for eternal life.” What is that one thing? My guess is that not
many of us are held back by expensive possessions. Not many are held
back by lands and jewels and gold reserves! Not many of you are
suffering under the weighty burden of Gucci, Prada, Christian Dior
and Yves St. Laurent!
Let
me ask a different set of questions. Let’s see how many hit home.
Are you rich in a fear that God doesn’t love you enough? Are you
unlovable? Are you so rich in sin that a righteous God couldn’t
possibly forgive you? Are you so rich in self-sufficiency,
self-reliance that you don’t need other people? So rich in a
personal knowledge of God that you don’t need others to reveal the
Father to you? Are you so rich in divine gifts that you don’t need
the gifts of others to make it day to day? Or maybe you’ve stored
up your wealth in good works and can survive without grace for a
while? Maybe you don’t need Jesus to look you in the eye and love
you because your grasp of the theological and moral constructs of the
human experience of the Divine are enough. Are you burning through
your life on the fuel of self-righteous certainty – the false
assurance that you’ve got it right all on your own (objectively and
absolutely) and that there is nothing else for you to learn and no
one competent to teach you? Are you so wise? Are you angry that no
one else notices your wisdom? Does your desire for piety and purity
bring you closer to your brothers and sisters in Christ, or is this
desire an excuse to keep them at a safe distance? Is your public
holiness also a private holiness, or is it a pretense that hides a
furious lack of charity?
Let
me ask the hardest question: what do you fear? More often than not we
are slaves to our fears not our loves and we can dodge public
responsibility for our fears. We cannot dodge Christ: no creature is
concealed from him, but everything is naked and exposed to the eyes
of him to whom we must render an account.
Despite
these gard questions, I’m not worried. Not even a little. Here’s
what I know: we desire to know God, we long to be touched by His
spirit, we want more than gold, silver, or cold hard cash to be in
His presence and to know his healing grace. We are here b/c He loved
us here and we got off the couch, off the computer, off the cell
phone, and we made it here this morning for this reason and no other:
we cannot be happy w/o Him and there is no better or messier or more
graceful place to find Him than among His mongrel children at prayer.
Bring your lack to Him and do what needs to be done to follow Him.
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