From 2012 (with editions):
Wednesday after Epiphany
Fr. Philip Neri Powell, OP
St. Dominic Church, NOLA
What a sad indictment of the
disciples. After Jesus calms the angry sea and rescuing his friends from
a watery grave, Mark writes, “[The disciples] were completely
astounded. They had not understood the incident of the loaves. On the
contrary, their hearts were hardened.” It is sad that they are astounded
by Jesus' power to calm the sea and even sadder that they did not
understand the signs given to them when he fed the five thousand. As sad
as these failures are, it is saddest of all that their hearts have
hardened against accepting the truth of Jesus' true nature and mission.
What does all this sad failure tell us about the disciples? At the very
least, we know why they were so frightened by the storm and by Jesus
walking on the water to save them. With hearts hardened against both
understanding and love, the disciples are left with no other way to see
and feel the world than through fear. They are terrified at the prospect
of drowning, and even the appearance of their Master on the waves is
not enough to quell their fear. John writes, “There is no fear in love,
but perfect love drives out fear.” Christ is with us. There is no place
for fear among us. So, take heart!
When we say that a heart has grown hard, we mean that it is no longer
capable—on its own—of serving its spiritual function: it can no longer
love; that is, it can no longer seat Love Himself at the center of the
human soul. Without Love Himself seated in the center of our souls, no
soul can begin even to dream of seeing and understanding the miraculous
signs Christ performs, much less see and understand his true nature and
mission. Without Love Himself seated at the center of their lives, the
disciples are ignorant and loveless men chosen by Christ to learn and
love instead of fear; yet, their fear is what keeps them from learning
and loving. Their fear reaches its terrific peak at Jesus' arrest in the
Garden, and they surrender to the temptation to abandon him. Only after
the descent of the Holy Spirit, the spirit of love between the Father
and the Son, do they find their hearts grown large enough to hold all
the love they need to take on the Christ-nature and make his mission
their own. But now, in a boat on an angry sea, they cry out in
astonishment and fear, and they hear Jesus say, “Take courage, it is I,
do not be afraid!” Take heart! Christ is with us. And there is no place
for fear among us.
Without Love Himself seated in our hearts, we cannot begin even to dream
of seeing and understanding the miraculous signs Christ performs, much
less see and understand his true nature and mission. And understanding
that nature and mission is more than a matter of historical curiosity.
By receiving his body and blood in this sacrifice of thanksgiving, each
one of us who receives commits him/herself to taking on Christ's nature
and to making his mission our own. We take one more step toward becoming
fully human; that is, to becoming more perfectly human, completely
giving ourselves over to the Father for His divine purpose. But fear
stands btw each one of us and total surrender to God. The spirit of
not-knowing-what-comes; the spirit of worry, anxiety, turmoil floats
there tempting us to run, to just give up. And no amount of argument,
evidence, or tears will move us around those gnawing spirits. John tells
us, “. . .one who fears is not yet perfect in love.” So, we know that
perfect love moves fear, and there is only one Perfect Love: God
Himself. Thanks be to God that Christ is with us always. Now, take one
more step toward becoming Christ for one another and banish fear
forever.
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